Rants
4 THE NON CHRONICALLY ONLINE PEOPLE IN THE BACK::
/ j = joke
/srs = serious
NOTE THAT QUICK RANTS ARE PERSONAL AND NOT LISTED WITH A TONE TAG
3/26/26 ~ different
i know whats its like to feel. different
about the thing about me being teased about my sexual orientation and appearance, now its me and society. to start this off, this island i live on isnt friendly towards some kids that are like me. im the main target for being pointed out SOMETIMES. i always talk about john lennon so loudly, and i think thats why i get bullied. another reason is me acting so weird around my friends. fuck, i think its also me talking to my new friend at the time publicly on google classroom. i honestly cant even blame them because... thats kinda reasonable. it might be the panic attacks/breakdowns i have had before. i wish i could tell myself at those times when i had those kind of panic attacks/breakdowns that its ok. i wish i could heal now with that girl that used to be me.
another thing that made me realize that i am out of the norm today was me leaving my drawing outside of my choir classroom's door. when my teacher was calling people that needed to use the restroom, i was one of them. i stepped outside and spotted my drawing of john lennon in his dirty mac performance outfit in a chibi-ish style. i was so embarrassed when i picked it up. i think all of the kids that walked outside laughed. im not sure, there was only a few of us. i was thinking, maybe other kids made fun of it before they even walked in. i dont know though, and i domt think i ever will. honestly i think my choir class makes me think im different
the way theyre always so energetic makes me think im way too tired. i do have a few friends in there, but its only 3, 4, or 5 maybe? im not too sure. that girl doesnt talk to me a lot anymore. i can never get along with others unless they talk to me first. when i came into that class when i switched to advanced, no one wanted to talk to me. i think thats ok too, but thinking about this made me aware
3/11/26 ~ sir
the title of this rant is sir because someone referred me to that as a joke, but i actually feel comfortable with it. This quick rant will about be about how i love being mistakenly or purposely called a guy.
im a butch lesbian at the moment. when i first turned 13, ive been having thoughts of becoming transgender since i wanted to feel accepted in a community ive always wanted to belong in. my family. my family is homophobic. i just wish they accept me when i come out. its scary, though. when i also hit that age, the thoughts about being confident of having a mustache also hit me. another thing i would like to talk about is about last week, when i got teased by this friend group that would usually tease and mess around with my own friend group. they teased me for being lesbian, and also lied about liking my mustache as they laughed after saying it. i reported their actions to the school office and counselor. both havent really done anything about it yet, but i hope they do and will take action. somehow, i began to love my mustache more as they made that comment in a not-so-serious way. i really dont know how, but it did. i loved being masculine representing. i love my short hair, even if i didnt mean to cut it like that. i loved it all.
i love the thought of becoming a boy someday. if i will.
6/2/25 ~ yoko ono (/srs)
there is either yoko ono h8 bcuz they can't be like her iconic eccentric self. it's either that, OR THEY BLAME HER 4 MAKING THE BAND "FALL APART". in peter brown's book, "all you need is love", literally st8s that the band itself was already falling apart. and he knew the beatles,, "Clearly there was trouble in paradise. Just for the record, Yoko did not break up the Beatles; the Beatles were already in irretriveable disarry from the time Brian died and they lost their ballast." ON GODDAMN PAGE 11.
it's not called "glazing" i just have respect 4 her, so im defending her since i don't understand why SOME people h8 her if you don't like her thats a whole different story
5/31/25 ~ gripqueef rant. (/j)
I'M TIRED OF SEEING THIS CERTAIN DUMBASS PHOTO OF JOHN LENNON AS GRIPWEED BCUZ I SEE IT EVERYTIME I SEARCH HIM UP. I EVEN FOUGHT BACK BY MAKING MY WHOLE DISCORD PROFILE SHOWING HOW MUCH I H8 IT WHOLEHEARTEDLY. I SWEAR I SAW THIS IMAGE MORE THAN 5 TIMES CAN YOU GUYS STOP USING THIS IMAGE WHEN ITS ABOUT GRIPQUEEF IM SO TIRED I AM NOT SLEEPING 8 DAYS A FUCKING WEEK UNTIL THIS BULLSHIT IS GONE AND 4EVER 4GOTTEN?!??!??!??!?1//1/1// waaaarrrr is ovvveeerrr!! APPARENTLY IT ISNT BECAUSE OF THIS IMAGE